6 years ago today we took a risk and followed a prompting in your hearts and moved across Canada to live life on the West Coast. Listening to God’s whispers has not disappointed us. The move has been hard but the lessons have been so fruitful. I recall contemplating the move in a raining car outside the grocery store and hearing a song by third day called Revelation.
Has led me down the road that’s so uncertain
And now I am left alone and I am broken,
Trying to find my way,
Trying to find the faith that’s gone
I know that you are holding all the answers
I’m tired of losing hope and taking chances,
On roads that never seem,
To be the ones that bring me home
Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I’ve been trying to find my way,
I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without You”
I held on to those words for weeks “should I stay here, or do I need to move.” I listen to the song over and over and played out all the scary things that would have to happen if we decided to move.
I would reason myself out of this crazy prompting to move, only to wake up to it again the next morning. I spoke a word to nobody while my heart wrestled with the idea.
I was so focused on the how this is going to happen and what are people going to think.
Then one morning after playing the song for the 100th time I listen to the next song on the CD.
“Ever since the world around you shattered
You’ve been looking everywhere for something more
Sometimes you feel like your life doesn’t matter
But it does
I tell you it does
Come on let me love you now
Come on let me love you and hold you through the storms
I will keep you safe and warm
Come on let me love you now
Come on let me love you and kiss away your tears
I will always be here
Come on let me love you
Yesterday you found your heart was broken
Tomorrow doesn’t leave much room for hope
Today you’ll find that my arms are wide open
And my heart
My heart is full of love
Give up on all the other things
‘Cause my love can bring you more
And if you take a chance on me
I’ll give you what you’re looking for”
The voice was clear that morning. You have been pushing, pulling, taking on the demands of everything yourself. I felt God whisper, you done wrestling yet? You ready to step in and take a chance? Are you ready to let me love on you?
I went home and told Jen what I had been contemplating for a month and told her to think about it. Truth be told we both knew it was not something we need to “think” about anymore.
I was terrified and excited the morning I woke up to this truck sitting at the curb, ready to go, with all that was left of our possessions.
It has been the hardest thing we have ever done and the hardest thing we have ever “stuck” with and through the trails and adversities I am so overjoyed with grateful tears this morning that I took a chance, listen to the prompting and let God love me. Our hearts are full of so much wisdom and our spirits are forever changed. God taught me my life matters. The story does not end there it’s just a reminder. Heading into our 7th year God is asking me the same questions whether I am willing to take chances on things that seem impossible. I am scared and excited to see what is in the gap between where I am and where we feel God is calling us.